It's been a while since this space was filled. I guess it came to that point of time when I figured recording my life here would be the least of my priorities. Everyday just zipped by leaving me wanting time to slow down. Look, we've reached November. My life is about to take a huge turn, a big change, a fresh start. Honestly, I don't want to leave the new friends I've made after all we've worked so hard for. Well yes I guess we'll see each other in school. But how often? Will it be the same? Can the friendships remain where they are now? Doubts.

They say people come and go. Well I hate that phrase.

So tomorrow shall be the last day I get to have formal lessons with S01 as a class. I guess I'll miss you guys. But I'm worried for you, whether y'all can cope with the crazy upcoming year. Then again, I have faith and trust that all of you will put in your best effort to ensure that you will perform up to the standard S01 has. You will face struggles, but I sincerely believe that each one of you have the potential to run your race. So keep pushing yourself, you have my support!

Now as November comes to a close and the holidays begin, I'm mentally preparing myself for all the upcoming...holiday happenings. I did not expect my holidays to be completely packed like sausages in a can but it's true. Highlights for me would be QQN's birthday dinner (with S01!), family trip to Australia, YF camp, relative trip to Pulai Springs, Netball Chalet, OGL camp and finally Class Chalet. I haven't even factored in all the trainings/movie marathons/catch-ups. Moreover my mom wants me to start revising my Geog inbetween my free days. I guess those days would be the least.

I predict this space would be more lively then!

Acceptance & Thankfulness

Then this is how it ends and I'm alright with it. You're never going to see me cry, cause I've cried. I'll be okay, there's nothing you can do to me, that's ever gonna bury me. Out on the street, I'm fearless. If this is how it hurts it couldn't get much worse. If this is how it feels to fall, then that's the way it is. We live with what we miss, we learn to build another wall till it falls. Better believe I'm fearless, fearless.

I will make the best of it.

Maybe this whole thing was just my fault. I screwed it up, okay? Everything that happened was because of me. Is it my fault too that I suck at life?

- LIFE SUCKS when you have HIGH EQ. says:
LIFE SUCKS
♥CARITAS™ت says:
agreed. but i'm trying to stay positive. although it's getting harder everyday.
The army person who came to give a talk in school yesterday said, "No matter how hard it gets, there is always an end."


Yes I do hope this ends.

"Today I felt inexplicably happy.
Truly madly deeply.
I really hope it'll stay this way, I'm tired of having t pretend I'm happy when I'm not really."

How I wish I could say the same.