Yet another week has passed, I always look back and tell myself, "Hey Caritas, you made it through another week!!! WELL DONE."

Yes I live on encouragement, nothing else gets me going. :) I especially love it when I have friends texting me randomly to just check and see how I'm doing for that week/day. I'd feel so encouraged, and that small text is enough to get me through the rest of the day. I hope everybody in the world gets this feeling of being encouraged and motivated to live through each and everyday. No matter how hard the struggle is, whatever giant obstacle that pops up, don't let it push you down. Keep looking up, you know that there's always someone there to support you. :>

Drifting back into my self proclaimed hiatus.

Today was... Amazing. :)

Didn't really expected much to happen because today was dedicated mostly to the CNY celebrations. But God has truly blessed me with so many loving friends who are just so incredible, making my day nearly perfect!

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23

I'll never forget each moment, the experience, every drop of blood and sweat, & the smiles. :)

We Dare, We Fight.

A few takeaways from today:

1. I was reminded of God's unfailing might and power. He saw me through the long day which was both mentally and physically exhausting! He gave me the strength, energy, confidence, courage, endurance and willpower to push myself through each and every match. I knew for sure He was helping me especially when we entered the semi-finals. Our opponents were strong. Knowing that I wasn't all that fantastic at being a Goal Defender, I was easily discouraged whenever I made a mistake on court. But God was running with me each second, being my encourager.

"Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee." Deuteronomy 31:6

2. Throughout the entire week, I was being all worried and scared for today's matches as our main shooter and defender were injured thus leading me to think that we might not make it to the top 3 this year for Daisy Tan Carnival. However, working in His mysterious ways, the substitute shooter for Wenhui was actually good. Her shots were almost 90% accurate! Also, Shar was able to defend along side with me for nearly all the matches!!!! I was so thankful for that! God had answered my prayer as the team emerged top 3!! :>

"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

3. God's timing is always perfect. Though at times we may seem to doubt His perfect plans for us, yet, at the end of the day, things eventually unfold. & by the time we come to realize that all is well and meant to be, we would have committed a sin that we would later regret.

Thank God It's Friday

I made it through the week. Feels like the truckload of burden I've been carrying has been lifted from my shoulders. All I could remember doing was the constant rush of completing assignments after assignments, above it all were the 4 tests I had! It's crazy just how the homework list can lengthen so rapidly through the course of the week. Everyday I'd be thinking which subject would I dare to sacrifice such that the consequence faced would be the least.

By Wednesday, I came to realise how weak my mental strength was. I came home, sat down and realised that I had myself on the line for every single lesson on Thursday. I think I reached my limit then, and like an elastic band, recoiled back into my pathetic comfort zone. Never had to take this kind of escape route before, but as of yesterday, I finally did. I suppose I've got a lot to work on, in terms of courage, mental strength and stamina. Not sure how my future Wednesdays-Thursdays will turn out. Ending each Wednesday at 9pm and only to reach home at 10pm-ish, with a predictable pile of due/overdue assignments + tests the following morning isn't very ideal for me!!

Maybe I'll runaway again? But maybe I'll learn to endure and persevere on.

Another event I distinctly recollect is the morning mad rush to school. Okay not that it's something new since the past 2 years were somewhat similar, but this year it's slightly different. Out of 5 days I had to do 4 x 100m sprint from bus stop to school! Okay I admit it's thrilling, the relief I get after crossing through the school gate when I make it on time. Hahahah, but still risky uh! Thank God I was not late a single day this week though! I've still got 2 lifelines before getting detention heh. ALRIGHT NEW GOAL: Cannot be late > 3 times until June!!!!

Finally, even though it's the end of the school week, hate to say this but I am still stressed out. Big day for me tomorrow. Big day for the team. It's really unfortunate that the team is already so small, but now we are down by 1 main shooter and 1 main defender. I have no clue on how tough it will be tomorrow, especially since my defending partner, Shar, might not play. Then it's left with me and prolly a substitute. I'm scared I will not be able to work with whoever the sub is cuz I'm really used to working with Shar on court! Ugh and we must get into the top 3 otherwise this batch will be letting all our previous Seniors down and we can't go for Achievers' Night! Frigging stressful, I guess all netballers will understand how precious each player is to the team. & I'm still praying, that by some miracle, Wenhui's ankle will heal by God's grace. Otherwise, Joy will be needing a substitute shooter partner as well! All this said, I'm still hoping God will help us and let us emerge top 3!!!!!

Well it's Friday, it's girls night out for me. Hopefully I'll destress tonight and just relax and focus on tomorrow's matches. Love & Other Drugs. :)